When i say….

When I say . . . I am a Christian I’m not shouting “I am saved.” I’m whispering “I get lost” That is why I chose this way.

When I say . . . I am a Christian I don’t speak of this with pride. I’m confessing that I stumble and need someone to be my guide.

When I say . . . I am a Christian I’m not trying to be strong. I’m professing that I am weak and pray for strength to carry on.

When I say . . . I am a Christian I’m not bragging of success. I’m admitting I have failed and cannot ever pay the debt.

When I say . . . I am a Christian I’m not claiming to be perfect. My flaws are too visible but God believes I’m worth it.

When I say . . . I am a Christian I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches which is why I seek HIS name.

When I say . . . I am a Christian I do not wish to judge. I have no authority I only know I’m loved. ❤

– Unknown

Forgiveness

You have to forgive yourself for whatever that you holding yourself responsible for, you blaming yourself because of some decisions you made. You would be saying “if I knew this would happen, why did I let this person in, why didn’t I think fast, what if I wouldn’t have done that”. Even if you ask yourself those questions nothing is going to change whatever happened happened and u need to deal with and forgive yourself for it. Dwelling in self pity is not the way to go with things. I know there are moments where we feel like absolute failures and that’s when u should let God intervene because forgiving yourself is not easy, the devil will whisper evil thoughts he will remind u of the past and tell u things that u are not.

The bible says we have the nature of Christ, we have his Character and Jesus was so humble and forgiving. The way Jesus was so humble he even washed his disciples feet while it was suppose to be the other way around. The bible teaches us of turning the other cheek when someone slaps you that comes with being selfless and knowing that you have the greater one inside of u yeah we are human and we get angry to a point where we don’t even think straight but if we thought before we act we wouldn’t have so many regrets. Forgiveness is not easy I know others are rape victims others have been abused in all possible ways you can think of, I know people go through the worst in life but forgiveness itself is a gift we have to inherit from our God because he’s a definition of forgiveness himself think about the times you wronged him and He still loves us unconditional. When u forgive the other person u also doing it for yourself because u letting go of the past you letting go of the pain you letting go of the bitterness and u will feel some weight being lifted on your shoulders.

Holding a grudge for someone Is not good nor healthy because whenever u see or think about that person u only think of doing the worst and in other cases others end up doing bad things in anger later on to regret. Look at things this way, people see Judas as a bad person and what they don’t realise it that Judas was needed for us to have this salvation. Jesus knew that Judas was going to betray him and it was beneficial on his side because if Judas didn’t sell Jesus then He wouldn’t have died for us on the cross. There was a time in the bible where Jesus was eating with His disciples and he told them that the one who was going to share a bread with is going to betray him and Judas ate that bread.

Some things need to happen in your life in order for things to fall into place. I got reminded of the story of Joseph, Joseph dreamt of being a king and told his brothers and they sold him, he fell into pits, he was arrested for things he didn’t do but little did he know that whatever trial and tribulations he was going through was leading him to his destiny. God promised to have plans for u plans not to harm but plans to prosper, for one to still be here that means God is still working with you, am not saying everything u went through is God’s plan but am saying He is with you because He will never leave nor forsake you.

We need to let go and let God. Hatred is toxic it is dangerous because it drives people crazy. Instead of focusing on the bad rather focus on the good and see if things will change. Romans 8:18 Your present suffering is not worth the future glory that is going to be revealed in you. James 1 consider it pure joy when you go through trials and tribulations.

We have been declared conquerors and for us to be that means we have to conquere some things first right?

We shouldn’t let what people did to us destroy us we need forgiveness I know it’s not easy but it’s worth it, because you will be doing it for yourself

Love me Naked

Ella Mai Lyrics
“Naked”

Take away the big shirts, the tattoos, the sweatpants and Vans
Okay, I don’t wear no makeup, no purse in my hands
My resting bitch face is mistaken for the mean girl
But what if I told you
There’s nothing I want more in this world

Than somebody who loves me naked
Someone who never asks for love
But knows how to take it
Are you that somebody
Who sees a wall and breaks it
Are you ready to fight just to see what’s lost behind my flaws
Can you love me naked
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Naked
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Naked
Ooooooh yeah yeah

Might be a bitch in the morning so catch me at night time
Some of my friends think I’m moody but I think I’m just fine
I could be pissed but I’ll act like I’m not
I really remember when I say I forgot
No matter how hard I try
To run away from love at the end of the night

I need somebody who loves me naked
Someone who never asks for love
But knows how to take it
Are you that somebody
Who sees the wall and breaks it
Are you ready to fight just to see what’s lost behind my flaws
Can you love me naked
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Naked
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Naked

I need someone who loves me when I wake up
Who thinks I’m beautiful when I’m looking fucked up
I want that perfect love, am I asking too much
Someone who shoots for the stars, know when
I think I’m not even good enough

I need somebody who loves me naked
(Who loves me naked)
Someone who never asks for love
But knows how to take it
(Knows how to take it)
Are you that somebody
Who sees the wall and breaks it
Are you ready to fight just to see what’s lost behind my flaws
Can you love me naked
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Naked
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Naked

My favourite jam… My favourite love song.

Truth to be told, i am, asking can you be that somebody, who can love me naked, without asking for love but can be able to take it.

I belive true love is not a fairytale, it doea exist, i just haven’t found it yet.

Wish you a happy Sunday

There is nothing God cannot handle, and there is nothing He does not want to take care of for you. Our God is a caring God. He knows everything you are walking through, and if you will surrender to Him, you will experience His presence in a new way.

As you give God control of your life, you are going to experience His best for your life.

I want to remind you that the Lord is fighting for you today and every day. You do not have to be afraid or worried when you are in His hands; you need only to be still. He is with you!

sonnet 116 by Shakespeare

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O, no! it is an ever-fixed mark,
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth’s unknown, although his height be taken.
Love’s not Time’s fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle’s compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved

To My lovely Daughter

My beautiful princess.

I chose to write this letter to you, hoping that some day in this world you will or might view my blog and read it.

I love you so much, never forget that no matter what. You are my precious gift from God. My most valuable treasure i may add. You are my light in this world. Everything might have seems fallen but you make me see things differently. I want to let you know that you are my everything, my world revolve around your being. I am so proud to be you mother and as long as i live i promise to be the best mother one can be. I will and still cherish all our wonderful times together.

You brighten my days, you make me smile and you are just 4 months and 25 days since you are arrive in this world but it feels like you have been in my life ages ago. I love being your mother, i love watching you sleep, and that random smile that you give when you are asleep make gives me butterfly. I love playing with you, i love everything about you.

I pray that God protects you in everything and i pray that when you grow up you should know that pray is our number key to everything in this world. I pray that you grow up healthy, loving and so adorable. I pray that you find your way in this lofe and never take anything for granted. I love you Orendwaho Adivhaho Musipha/Rasalanavho. You are the gift i ever received and you are my true love.

Pray

The more you pray, the quicker you are going to know God’s purpose for your life. And the quicker you know your purpose, the more you will notice God using everything in your life, even the bitter and broken things, for your good and for the good of others.